Daily Quotation

Friday, March 30, 2012

Long Walk Taken

When I was a senior in high school, living in eastern Nevada, I went deer hunting alone on a late November day in 1961.  It was a wet, cloudy day and the first snow of the year was melting. Driving up toward the mountains on a little-used road that was just two parallel ruts with water seeping down them, I saw several deer get up and pass over a ridgeline to the south. I stopped the pickup and hurried down through a gully and up the far slope to the top of the ridge.  When I got there, I could not spot the deer.

I came back to the pickup about fifteen minutes later and found it sunk into the ruts so far that the running boards on both sides were resting on the ground. I tried to free the truck from the muddy ruts; but the more things I tried, the more mired it became.  The afternoon was quickly draining away, and as I rested I looked up toward the mountains to see a storm rolling down toward me.  About ten minutes later thick, heavy snow was falling. As the light faded, the intensity of the storm increased. 

I knew that if I stayed in place, I would be snowed in.  At this point of the year, deep snow could be on the ground for a long time.  My only option was to strike out on foot down to the ranch road and to head toward Ely.  I took with me only my father’s rifle, mostly because he would not want me to leave it and not because I thought I needed it for protection.
Within half an hour, the darkness was almost complete, and the driving snowstorm made everything disappear.  The only way I could navigate was to feel for the brush rubbing against my jeans on the right side. When I did feel it, I would angle to the left until I felt the brush in the center brushing my left boot. I had walked for over an hour when I sensed something in front of me.  I couldn’t see anything, but I had that feeling that comes when we come near something in the dark. I slowed down and, inching forward with my free hand in front of me, I bumped into a cow. I don’t know which of us was more startled; but the cow moved off the road and I passed by.

After walking for another hour or so, I came to the ranch road and turned north toward home.  The snow did not let up but, as happens when everything turns white with snow, there seemed to be a bit more light by which to navigate.  For the next hour I could feel the gravel crunching under my boots. Then everything was muffled as the snow continued to fall.
Looking back over all these decades, I don’t know what I might have been thinking about as I trudged along that road. To this day, however, I can feel the almost perfect stillness that surrounded me.  It was the first time I experienced a true sense of detachment, almost as though I were watching myself walking mile after mile.  I lost track of how much time passed and just kept putting one foot in front of the other. 

As I walked I eventually came to the road that turned right off the ranch road and went to the old charcoal ovens that had been used in the late 1800s for charcoal production.  I knew that from this point I had about two more hours of walking until I came to the paved highway that led to town.  I had not eaten for several hours so I was growing tired; but the hope of catching a ride home on Highway 93 kept me moving. 
After a few minutes, I heard a distant sound to my rear.  Soon I recognized it as a large truck.  My sense of relief grew as I heard it coming closer. Soon I could sense the headlights illuminating everything in front of me. Since the snow had been coming against my back from the south, I did not bother turning around.  The cattle truck rumbled right past me, and I watched the tail lights disappearing in the storm ahead. Just as it occurred to me to fire the rifle at the truck’s tires, it stopped.  I trudged up to the passenger side and opened the door.  The old rancher stared at me and said, “Jesus Christ, son. I thought you was a ghost.”

I don’t know who that good Samaritan was, but he gave me a ride into town, dropping me off on the main street just a few doors from our house.  I arrived home after 2:00 a.m., to find my parents and oldest sister anxiously waiting to hear from me.  Once I told my story, my father said that we couldn’t leave the pickup out there all winter.  He called my brother-in-law, who had a Toyota Land Cruiser and headed back into the country within an hour.  I was exhausted, but since I was the only one who knew exactly where the pickup was, I had to go along.  I don’t know what time it was when we arrived where the pickup was stuck, but by the time we got it pulled out and turned around, the sky was beginning to lighten.
I had the presence of mind to ask my father to clock the mileage from that spot to the coke ovens.  He asked me several times, “You sure you walked this far?” Passing the turnoff, he announced that we had come just over 21 miles.

Maybe I should have realized then that the long walk taken would lead to a life of travel and long walks along paths and roadways.  That experience as a teenager of seventeen seems to have marked my life—and set up what now lies ahead for me.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Monday Meditation, December 27, 2010


What can we say in the awesome experience of the Incarnation of God?
For this week, let's reflect on the words of three Wise Persons:

From the 2nd Century:
The Son of God became a human being so that humans might become sons and daughters of God.”
--St. Ireneaus

From the 20th Century:
"We are all called to be contemplatives in the heart of the world -- by seeking the face of God in everything, everyone, everywhere, all the time, and [God's] hand in every happening; seeing and adoring the presence of Jesus, especially in the lowly appearance of bread, and in the distressing disguise of the poor."
--Mother Teresa

From the 21st Century:
The Word did not become a philosophy, a theory, or a concept to be discussed, debated, or pondered.  The Word became a Person to be followed, to be enjoyed, and to be loved.
--Roy Lessin

Monday, October 4, 2010

Monday Meditation, October 4th

Mary Oliver, one of my favorite modern-day poets, often takes my breath away with her poetic insights.
 
To live in this world
 
 you must be able
to do three things:
to love what is mortal;
to hold it
 
against your bones knowing
your own life depends on it;
and, when the time comes to let it go,
to let it go.
 
Today is the Feast of St. Francis, and I can hear him saying about her message, "Well, of course, what do you think I was always talking about?"
 
For a more complete meditative moment, read her poem here: http://www.panhala.net/Archive/In_Blackwater_Woods.html
Turn on your computer speakers!
 
Happy Autumn,

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Monday Meditation, Sep 20, 2010

The Book Title That Changed My Life
Several years ago I came across a book title that had a more profound effect on my life than I could have imagined.  For a long time, I didn't read the book; but I kept it in my office where I could see the cover.  The title?  How Come Every Time I Get Stabbed in the Back My Fingerprints Are on the Knife? 


For me, that book title names the biggest obstacle to our continued spiritual growth: We have a well-developed habit of looking outside ourselves at the sins and transgressions of others. And we tend to think of God as being "out there" somewhere rather than being present in each person.  In an attempt to avoid what we don't like or can't accept in ourselves, we look "out there" to find someone else we can blame.  Psychologists named this phenomenon projection,  but our spiritual forebears knew and recognized it for centuries.


Jesus used the "splinter in the other person's eye, plank in my eye" metaphor to name this fixation. This scapegoating seems to be rampant in our time and our society. It's those politicians or political activists who are to blame; it's the Muslims who are at the root of our troubles; it's all those illegal immigrants...; it's the bankers, and on and on.


What do you suppose would happen if everyone followed the example of our great saints--and our Savior--who wasted no time glaring at the sins of others?


Blessings for the week,
Bob



Wednesday, September 8, 2010

The "Let's Imagine it's Monday" Meditation

The Gospel messages in these "ordinary" times are pointed calls to what it means to be a follower of Christ (all from Gospel of Luke):
Aug 8:   Be watchful and awake
Aug 15: He has cast the mighty down from their thrones
Aug 22: Enter through the narrow gate (apparently with NO "baggage"!)
Aug 29: Go and take the lowest place
Sep 5:   Renounce all your possessions [to be] my disciple

I feel like crying out, "Give me a break for a minute!"  But notice the cadence and "the call":  we don't need all the "stuff" that we accumulate; and that includes our mental stuff.

As the wonderful English mystic, Evelyn Underhill, puts it:

"We mostly spend our lives conjugating three verbs: to Want, to Have, and to Do. Craving, clutching, and fussing on the material, political, social, emotional, intellectual---even on the religious plane---we are kept in perpetual unrest; forgetting that none of these verbs has any significance, except in so far as they are transcended and included in the fundamental verb "to be"…Being, not wanting, having, and doing, is the essence of a spiritual life.


Let's carry that message in our hearts this week.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Monday Meditation, August 30, 2010

The mathematics of religion.
It may be time for many of us modern Christians to go back to school.
We seem to have mixed up the mathematics of religion in our culture.
The "talk on the street" in modern American society would lead a person to conclude that religion is about multiplication and division.  We want to multiply our assets, to expand our holdings, to grow our business, to claim the riches we think we deserve.  We spend a lot of time focused on  what divides us.  We have superb arguments about why our religion is best--and why "those folks" may not deserve heaven.

When Jesus came, He changed the equation.  He taught us that life in the Kingdom is about addition and subtraction.  We are continually called to see others as being added to those chosen for the kingdom: the Pharisees and Presbyterians; the Samaritans and the Seventh Day Adventists;  the Buddhists, Baptists, and B'nai B'rith; the Mennonites, Muslims and Methodists.
And we are called to subtract our sense of self-importance, our insistence that we have the correct political view, our need to be "right" rather than to be united with others, our self-assuredness that we "deserve" God's blessings more than someone who is not like us.

For a great refresher in remedial math re-read the Sunday Gospel: Luke 14:1, 7-14.
And let's hold in our hearts the Responsorial Refrain from Psalm 68: God, in your goodness, you have made a home for the poor.

Sunday, August 22, 2010


In the Sunday Gospel reading for Luke, we heard:

"...And people will come from the east and the west
and from the north and the south
and will recline at table in the kingdom of God."
(Luke 13)

What a feast!  Everybody is invited.  Who knows who will come?  God knows, and that's enough.  We need not spend one minute trying to decide who is worthy of the Kingdom--because no one is worthy of heaven. We can't earn it; but we can accept our place at the Divine dining table because of the gift of Christ's passion, death and resurrection.

We can't understand it from our personal sense of the historical Jesus of Nazareth.
It is the Cosmic Christ--the crucified, then resurrected and transfigured Son of Man/Son of God who will accomplish this grand design of salvation.

If you want to fill your heart and soul this week, go to Dogmatic Constitution of the Church (Lumen Gentium) and read the first part of Chapter II (On the People of God), starting with Paragraph 9.  Here's your link:  http://www.vatican.va/archive/hist_councils/ii_vatican_council/documents/vat-ii_const_19641121_lumen-gentium_en.html

Blessings for the week,
Bob